It's just hard to satisfy everyone when you're feeling empty inside....

This busy-ness is making me feel empty..

I wanted to help, but I can't even help myself..

Oh, great, it just made me look more idiotic and selfish than usual..

If I can buy time with my life, I would...

Life is empty without enough time to take back and relax...

What's the use of a long life if it's just focused on getting everything done?

And worries?

Worries are sign of selfishness.

Selfish about what will happen to ME tomorrow?

Why should I worry about ME??

Worried that I might be HATED?

Worried that people might MISUNDERSTAND me?

Whatever that is, I don't wanna care anymore..

Whatever people think about me, whether I'm selfish, whether I'm weak,
whether I'm idiotic, that's not gonna matter to me anymore...

Because they should be worried about what I think about them too..

I should just worry about where I go when I die...

I know I don't deserve to go to HEAVEN...

But at least let me feel the forgiveness in purgatory...

Indeed, this season of lent is full of temptations for me..

Amen.