Life Ain't Easy...

... when you checked the balance in your bank account and it is not in the amount that you thought it was supposed to be. *insert 'toink' as sound effect*

... when you opened the reference book to study and WTH, the contents just could not make its way to your brain.

... when you missed your family so so much, but you know that you just don't feel satisfied to be confined at home.

... when you felt like sharing your problems but you just could not utter out a single word, just because you think that it is better to swallow it all in than to vomit it all out.

... when people expect you to do your best but you just didn't meet to their expectations, just because you lose your self control to overcome the temptations.

... when you know that compromising is a MUST in order to get the other thing that you want but you just would not give in to compromising.

SO, WITH ALL THESE DILEMMAS, I VOW THAT I AM GOING TO:

1) LEAVE THIS BLOG ALONE UNTIL 4TH OF MAY (I'M GONNA BE ON A HIATUS BEBEH).

2) LESSEN MY FACEBOOKING TIME. (1 HOUR PERDAY INSTEAD OF 10 HOURS PERDAY, OKAY I KNOW THIS IS IMPOSSIBLE, LET'S MAKE IT TO 2 HOURS PERDAY.) :(

3) TO DO MY REVISION UNTIL ME AND MY BRAIN UNDERSTAND WHAT I REVISED.

4) TO REMEMBER MY FAMILY BACK AT HOME WHO ARE COUNTING ON ME TO STUDY RELIGIOUSLY AND MAKE THEM FEEL THAT'S IT'S WORTH IT THAT THEY SEND ME MONEY EVERY MONTH (THOUGH I ALREADY HAVE FULL LOAN OF PTPTN -I'M A PAMPERED CHILD, WTF) AND I SPEND IT WISELY (?) WHEN THEY CAN ACTUALLY IMPROVE A LOT OF THINGS AT HOME WITH THE MONEY THAT THEY SENT ME.

5) FOUR VOWS ARE ALREADY ENOUGH TO MAKE ME NERVOUS, MY DEAR.. SO DON'T EXPECT MORE..

[Interframe: Today I went to the library and saw a RM50 note on the floor and just like a reflex action, I sent it to the library's receptionist at the readers' adviser counter. When I finally think about it, I was like, what did I just do? It was not like the librarian could track down the owner of the RM50 and I expect that the money will eventually end up in the library's fund. Well, if the library is not as money-minded as it is now (where it charges fee for locker usage) I won't mind it if the money ended up in the library's dana, but since the library is so money-oriented now, I regretted sending the money there when I can actually do a real charity with the money, eg: give it to my club's fund, ahem, or give it to the beggars united. Now, the only thing I could wish for is for the owner to show up, as long as the money won't end up in the library's fund!)