Money Talk

Today I am going to talk about something which is so relevant to all of us, that is money. Money had always been an issue to us humans, whether we have too little of it, or too much of it. It's always gonna be a problem.

They say... money can't buy your happiness.

I say... 'but, money can decrease your sadness.'

They say... more money, more problem.

I say... 'no money, no life...'

They say... money is the roots of all evil.

I say... 'I agree... but many people do good deeds with money, such as donation, dana, etc.' Oprah is one very good example, don't you think so?

If you and I think carefully, actually money is not the problem. Money is just an object. When you let money control you instead of you control the money, it's from there that the problems exist. Humans, as hypocrite as we are, we blame money for everything when in actual, the greed, stinginess, insecurity and materialistic behaviour inside us which create problems out of money for us. If we put our priority well, we won't have money issues. If we put money as priority, we will easily be insecure when we run out of it. 

I hope that I can practice what I am posting now. I myself had a weird relationship with money. Sometimes I love it, sometimes I hate it. But then I realized, money isn't the problem at all. It's the way I handle them. 

I hope I can practice what Jesus said. "Don't worry about what you eat or what you drink. Even the stray birds are fed, what more to say you as the children of God." Erm I know this is not the exact saying but the gist are there. Hehe. I am not sure too from which chapter it is taken. (-_-") 

But the thing is, don't let yourself be the slave of money, instead let money be your slave. Ok?

Money Talk

Today I am going to talk about something which is so relevant to all of us, that is money. Money had always been an issue to us humans, whether we have too little of it, or too much of it. It's always gonna be a problem.

They say... money can't buy your happiness.

I say... 'but, money can decrease your sadness.'

They say... more money, more problem.

I say... 'no money, no life...'

They say... money is the roots of all evil.

I say... 'I agree... but many people do good deeds with money, such as donation, dana, etc.' Oprah is one very good example, don't you think so?

If you and I think carefully, actually money is not the problem. Money is just an object. When you let money control you instead of you control the money, it's from there that the problems exist. Humans, as hypocrite as we are, we blame money for everything when in actual, the greed, stinginess, insecurity and materialistic behaviour inside us which create problems out of money for us. If we put our priority well, we won't have money issues. If we put money as priority, we will easily be insecure when we run out of it. 

I hope that I can practice what I am posting now. I myself had a weird relationship with money. Sometimes I love it, sometimes I hate it. But then I realized, money isn't the problem at all. It's the way I handle them. 

I hope I can practice what Jesus said. "Don't worry about what you eat or what you drink. Even the stray birds are fed, what more to say you as the children of God." Erm I know this is not the exact saying but the gist are there. Hehe. I am not sure too from which chapter it is taken. (-_-") 

But the thing is, don't let yourself be the slave of money, instead let money be your slave. Ok?

Wake Up Call

Interframe: I should remind myself not to order teh chi during a night outing cause I will end up becoming a zombie who can't sleep. Arggh, scratch that, that teh chi was damn nice, it's worth to stay awake for teh chi that nice! XD

Last night, which was like 4 hours ago, I just came back from an outing with my three besties. We were catching up with each others' lives. Two of them, Amanda and Stephanie, were in their final semester and will graduate this December, the other one, Peter, will graduate next year. Me? I was the only graduate there, just without my scroll yet, since my convocation is only going to happen this coming September. But I was the one least worried and without a plan for my future yet though the future is NOW. I was still in the dreamland. I didn't go looking for a job with the excuse that I am still waiting for the reply from my master application. 

There were many reasons why I wanted to continue master. One reason was that, I still could not let go my university life. Secondly, it was due to the condition given by my mother, saying that if I wanted to stay in Penang, I should not stay because of work, but because of study. Thirdly, it was because I knew deep down inside me that with my achievement now, I am still far from getting my dream job unless I could have all the requirements needed for my dream job. So those were the options given to me, and I chose to continue.

To tell the truth, I had so many ambitions till I need to have 7 lifetimes if I wanted to fulfill them all. But ambitions without efforts are meaningless. And if I didn't earn anything, I would be further away from achieving any of my ambition. (-_-") Oh my, why is life so hard and complicated, though just thinking about it.

But when my bestie Steph told me her plan to work after graduate and also invest in silver, I was amazed and kinda think; maybe I should try to invest too. I mean, in the process of chasing your dreams, you need money to survive right? So maybe I can invest in something like gold? (Since my grandma knew so much about gold hmm) Maybe should use some of my saving to buy gold and wait for a few years then sell them back? Rather than having my money being saved in a bank and waiting for that small interest distribution each year. Even trust fund like ASN is not that promising.

Maybe I should think more seriously about my future... Cause the future is NOW. 

Invest in gold? Here's a link which might give you guys tips on how to invest in gold. 

What can I earn, and what can I give back to my family and the community? 

Better stop JUST THINKING about it but START TO THINK SERIOUSLY AND PLAN ABOUT IT.

Like they say, early birds catches the worm. So I better wake up now while I can still hear the call.

Wake Up Call

Interframe: I should remind myself not to order teh chi during a night outing cause I will end up becoming a zombie who can't sleep. Arggh, scratch that, that teh chi was damn nice, it's worth to stay awake for teh chi that nice! XD

Last night, which was like 4 hours ago, I just came back from an outing with my three besties. We were catching up with each others' lives. Two of them, Amanda and Stephanie, were in their final semester and will graduate this December, the other one, Peter, will graduate next year. Me? I was the only graduate there, just without my scroll yet, since my convocation is only going to happen this coming September. But I was the one least worried and without a plan for my future yet though the future is NOW. I was still in the dreamland. I didn't go looking for a job with the excuse that I am still waiting for the reply from my master application. 

There were many reasons why I wanted to continue master. One reason was that, I still could not let go my university life. Secondly, it was due to the condition given by my mother, saying that if I wanted to stay in Penang, I should not stay because of work, but because of study. Thirdly, it was because I knew deep down inside me that with my achievement now, I am still far from getting my dream job unless I could have all the requirements needed for my dream job. So those were the options given to me, and I chose to continue.

To tell the truth, I had so many ambitions till I need to have 7 lifetimes if I wanted to fulfill them all. But ambitions without efforts are meaningless. And if I didn't earn anything, I would be further away from achieving any of my ambition. (-_-") Oh my, why is life so hard and complicated, though just thinking about it.

But when my bestie Steph told me her plan to work after graduate and also invest in silver, I was amazed and kinda think; maybe I should try to invest too. I mean, in the process of chasing your dreams, you need money to survive right? So maybe I can invest in something like gold? (Since my grandma knew so much about gold hmm) Maybe should use some of my saving to buy gold and wait for a few years then sell them back? Rather than having my money being saved in a bank and waiting for that small interest distribution each year. Even trust fund like ASN is not that promising.

Maybe I should think more seriously about my future... Cause the future is NOW. 

Invest in gold? Here's a link which might give you guys tips on how to invest in gold. 

What can I earn, and what can I give back to my family and the community? 

Better stop JUST THINKING about it but START TO THINK SERIOUSLY AND PLAN ABOUT IT.

Like they say, early birds catches the worm. So I better wake up now while I can still hear the call.

KALAU AKU BOLEH LAMBUNG SYILING DESTINY...

 Interframe: Sari berita utama. SK St Mary (bekas sekolah rendah yours truly) telah keluar berita dalam The Borneo Post berikutan satu insiden. Nak tahu dengan lebih lanjut, sila klik link ini. Tak sangka kan? Huhu.

Orang kata, jangan tolak rezeki. Well... Itulah kata-kata hikmat pertama yang muncul dalam fikiranku ketika menerima panggilan dari Mama untuk memberitahuku tentang tawaran kerja untuk menjadi guru ganti selama kira-kira dua bulan. Di Sibu. Di sebuah sekolah rendah, yang mana murid-muridnya terdiri daripada lelaki semuanya. (Disclaimer: Nama sekolah dirahsiakan supaya tiada paparazzi mengekori saya sekiranya saya confirm untuk mengajar di sana kelak) 

Tapi, berkata tentang rezeki, mestikah benda yang lebih lumayan tu lebih BERrezeki? 

Biasanya dalam konteks masyarakat masa kini, ramai akan mengiyakan soalan di atas. Especially kalau rezeki tu datang dalam bentuk pekerjaan sementara. Sebab tu kerja sementara, tak minat pun tak apa. Janji lumayan. Sebab bukannya kamu akan buat kerja tu seumur hidup la kan?

Dan dalam kes aku, rezeki selalu datang tanpa diduga. Rezeki datang ketika aku belum bersedia. Rezeki datang ketika aku dah ada pelan. Masa aku belum ada pelan, macam takde satu habuk pun tawaran kerja. Tapi pabila aku dah ada sedikit perancangan, Rezeki pula sibuk nak datang nak bagi aku dilemma. 

Sengaja membuatku terpaksa membuat pilihan antara dia (rezeki) ataupun dengan keinginan hati. 

Ok, berbalik kepada cerita tadi.

Mula-mula aku dengar suara excited mama melalui handphone miniku, aku mulai bimbang. Mesti ada sesuatu ni. Ah.. Jangan pula.. Bukan itu.. Bukan itu..

Dan apabila beliau akhirnya memberitahu hal tersebut kepadaku, aku dah agak dah... Memang itu dia.

TAWARAN UNTUK MENJADI GURU GANTI LAGI.

Tiada mana-mana berita yang dapat menggembirakan Mama lebih daripada berita kekosongan untuk jawatan guru di mana-mana sekolah di Sibu. Serius tiada.

Guru ganti? Fikirku.

Di bawah merupakan subtitle perbualanku dengan Mama.

PERBUALAN PERTAMA:  

Aku: Eeeee, Ma... saya akan berada di Sibu untuk satu bulan ja. Mana dapat jadi guru ganti. Huhu.

Mama: Ai, jangan risau. Jadi guru ganti selama lebih kurang dua bulan je. Tu pun di sekolah *insert nama*. Guru besar dia bagitau kat saya ada kekosongan sebab gurunya nak bersalin. Guru besar tu sendiri yang nak awak jadi pengganti cikgu tu..

Aku: .....

Mama: Lagipun kalau guna sijil Form 6, gaji awak lumayan tau. At least RM 1000 ++. Itupun masih belum termasuk allowance lagi.

Aku: Eeeee, tapi saya dah janji dengan Mel nak jadi assistant untuk research dia kat Penang. (yesh, akhirnya dapat cari alasan muahahahha)

Mama: Takpa, nanti saya bagitau kat Mel. 

Aku: Tapi, aku tak tau la Mama. Aku lebih berminat nak kerja dengan NGO yang ada kat Penang ni.

Mama: Ala.. Dua bulan ja. Lepas dua bulan tu, bolehlah awak buat kerja awak kat Penang tu. Dua bulan awak kat sini dulu.

Aku: Erm... Bagi saya masa untuk fikir dulu ye.. Saya kena survey dulu kerja kat sini.

Mama: Ok. Tapi lebih baik confirm cepat ah. Sebab guru besar tu suruh kami isi borang permohonan jadi guru ganti untuk awak.

Aku: Okay. (-_-")

Line mati. 

Aku buntu. Mencari cara untuk membuat keputusan hidup mati ni.

Cara pertama aku memikirkan dilemma ini adalah dengan meng-update status di Facebook. (Ahem) Biasanya status ni berunsur kabur, tidak ada statement yang spesifik dan bermula dengan frasa "Dear God..."

Cara kedua, aku mengenang keadaan dulu. Fikir balik macam mana keadaannya aku menjadi guru sandaran selama 6 bulan di sekolah lamaku, St Mary dulu. Ada saat manis, ada saat pahit. Ada suka, ada duka. Ahhhh... Masih tak dapat buat keputusan.

Cara ketiga, aku fb mesej senior aku yang kerja di NGO yang aku minat tu. Mintak tolong dia untuk tanya kekosongan bagi pihakku. Kalau ada kekosongan untuk part time atau kerja sementara untuk 3 bulan, aku ON jer. Kalau tiada, aku pilih tawaran Mama. Ha, pandai tak? (sempat aku memuji diriku di dalam hati)

Cara keempat, aku bercerita dengan kawan baikku, Hawa, time pergi dinner. Di jejantas RST dan di meja makan Ismail Ikan Bakarlah tempat aku memberitahu Hawa tentang perasaan dilemma yang mengganggu jiwaku ini. Kata Hawa, bertuah saya dapat tawaran macam tu. (ini lebih kurang apa yang dikatakan oleh beliau. Hehe. Sori kalau ada unsur tokok tambah hoho) Tapi entahlah, aku tak rasa aku sesuai untuk kerja ajar-mengajar ni.

Cara kelima, call Mama balik. Tanya dia balik dengan sure apa mata pelajaran yang perlu diajar. Dan benda-benda serius yang lain.

PERBUALAN KEDUA:

Mama: Oh, ajar Matematik Tahun 1 dan Tahun 2. Pastu ajar Pendidikan Moral. (macam best ja dengar subjek-subjek tu)

Aku: Ma.. bila kena confirm? Saya confirm hari Jumaat boleh?

Mama: Ok. Tapi kenapa kena fikir?

Aku: Ala.. Sebab esok baru senior saya dapat bagitau saya sama ada NGO tu ada kekosongan ke tak.. Dan lepas esok baru saya dapat bagitau awak saya dapat mengajar ke tak.

Mama: Ok. Tapi kerja lah kat sini. Guru besar tu baik. Kalau awak reject offer ni, nanti malulah saya. 

Aku: Awak suruhla orang lain. Ada banyak orang mau kerja itu.

Mama: Ala. Dia mau awak. Sebab guru besar tu kenalan mama. (PS: Dalam mencari kerja, connection tu penting, lecturer saya pernah kata)

Aku: Ok. Tapi awak tau la, mesti saya ada masalah nak biasakan diri. Saya mesti susah nak bergaul dengan guru lain.

Mama: Jangan awak risau. Guru-guru di mission school biasanya tak sombong dan sangat friendly. (Tapi kenapa kakak sulung pula sentiasa komplen pasal cikgu yang poyo kat SMK St A******, Sarikei?)

Aku: Ha.. satu lagi. Transport tu bagaimana? Papa kan guna kereta... Dan.. Dan... Saya kan memang pengecut kalau pasal nak memandu kereta.

Mama: Ala, dekat je sekolah Sacred Heart tu. Awak guna jalan terminal Sibu gi sana, ok apa.. Papa cakap awak boleh guna kereta tu time mengajar. Papa awak kata, gaji awak sebagai guru ganti pun lebih lumayan daripada gaji colleague dia yang dah kerja berapa tahun.

Aku: (-_-") (dah habis stok alasan, so takde pilihan maka keluar statement tak boleh blah) Aku tak suka mengajar... Huwaa~

Mama: Hmm.. Dah bagus dah guru besar tu offer. Nanti apa saya nak cakap kalau awak tak nak? Dia memang dah beriya-iya nak awak jadi guru ganti tu. Mana saya berani nak tegur dia lagi lepas peristiwa ni? (lebih kurang macam ni statementnya)

Aku: Eeeee.. Awak memang selalu begini. Oklah. Oklah. Nanti saya mesej senior saya, suruh dia tak payah survey kekosongan untuk saya. Kamurang yang di Sibu sila isi borang permohonan untuk saya lah.

Mama: (seriously aku boleh DENGAR senyuman Mama) Ok. Ok. Kan. Baik awak buat kerja ni dulu. Dengar kata family.

Aku: Okay. okay. Baiklah.

Aku mesej senior aku, cancel plan nak survey kekosongan di NGO yang diminati itu.

Eh. Bila fikir balik, kenapa aku dah start worry tentang benda ni sedangkan aku belum lagi duduk periksa untuk first paper FINAL?

Haiz.. (-_-")

Aku harap aku buat keputusan yang betul.

Lambung syiling.

Kepala (otak) atau bunga (hati) ?

Kepala.

(-_-")

Yea, dan keputusan itulah yang saya ambik.

KALAU AKU BOLEH LAMBUNG SYILING DESTINY...

 Interframe: Sari berita utama. SK St Mary (bekas sekolah rendah yours truly) telah keluar berita dalam The Borneo Post berikutan satu insiden. Nak tahu dengan lebih lanjut, sila klik link ini. Tak sangka kan? Huhu.

Orang kata, jangan tolak rezeki. Well... Itulah kata-kata hikmat pertama yang muncul dalam fikiranku ketika menerima panggilan dari Mama untuk memberitahuku tentang tawaran kerja untuk menjadi guru ganti selama kira-kira dua bulan. Di Sibu. Di sebuah sekolah rendah, yang mana murid-muridnya terdiri daripada lelaki semuanya. (Disclaimer: Nama sekolah dirahsiakan supaya tiada paparazzi mengekori saya sekiranya saya confirm untuk mengajar di sana kelak) 

Tapi, berkata tentang rezeki, mestikah benda yang lebih lumayan tu lebih BERrezeki? 

Biasanya dalam konteks masyarakat masa kini, ramai akan mengiyakan soalan di atas. Especially kalau rezeki tu datang dalam bentuk pekerjaan sementara. Sebab tu kerja sementara, tak minat pun tak apa. Janji lumayan. Sebab bukannya kamu akan buat kerja tu seumur hidup la kan?

Dan dalam kes aku, rezeki selalu datang tanpa diduga. Rezeki datang ketika aku belum bersedia. Rezeki datang ketika aku dah ada pelan. Masa aku belum ada pelan, macam takde satu habuk pun tawaran kerja. Tapi pabila aku dah ada sedikit perancangan, Rezeki pula sibuk nak datang nak bagi aku dilemma. 

Sengaja membuatku terpaksa membuat pilihan antara dia (rezeki) ataupun dengan keinginan hati. 

Ok, berbalik kepada cerita tadi.

Mula-mula aku dengar suara excited mama melalui handphone miniku, aku mulai bimbang. Mesti ada sesuatu ni. Ah.. Jangan pula.. Bukan itu.. Bukan itu..

Dan apabila beliau akhirnya memberitahu hal tersebut kepadaku, aku dah agak dah... Memang itu dia.

TAWARAN UNTUK MENJADI GURU GANTI LAGI.

Tiada mana-mana berita yang dapat menggembirakan Mama lebih daripada berita kekosongan untuk jawatan guru di mana-mana sekolah di Sibu. Serius tiada.

Guru ganti? Fikirku.

Di bawah merupakan subtitle perbualanku dengan Mama.

PERBUALAN PERTAMA:  

Aku: Eeeee, Ma... saya akan berada di Sibu untuk satu bulan ja. Mana dapat jadi guru ganti. Huhu.

Mama: Ai, jangan risau. Jadi guru ganti selama lebih kurang dua bulan je. Tu pun di sekolah *insert nama*. Guru besar dia bagitau kat saya ada kekosongan sebab gurunya nak bersalin. Guru besar tu sendiri yang nak awak jadi pengganti cikgu tu..

Aku: .....

Mama: Lagipun kalau guna sijil Form 6, gaji awak lumayan tau. At least RM 1000 ++. Itupun masih belum termasuk allowance lagi.

Aku: Eeeee, tapi saya dah janji dengan Mel nak jadi assistant untuk research dia kat Penang. (yesh, akhirnya dapat cari alasan muahahahha)

Mama: Takpa, nanti saya bagitau kat Mel. 

Aku: Tapi, aku tak tau la Mama. Aku lebih berminat nak kerja dengan NGO yang ada kat Penang ni.

Mama: Ala.. Dua bulan ja. Lepas dua bulan tu, bolehlah awak buat kerja awak kat Penang tu. Dua bulan awak kat sini dulu.

Aku: Erm... Bagi saya masa untuk fikir dulu ye.. Saya kena survey dulu kerja kat sini.

Mama: Ok. Tapi lebih baik confirm cepat ah. Sebab guru besar tu suruh kami isi borang permohonan jadi guru ganti untuk awak.

Aku: Okay. (-_-")

Line mati. 

Aku buntu. Mencari cara untuk membuat keputusan hidup mati ni.

Cara pertama aku memikirkan dilemma ini adalah dengan meng-update status di Facebook. (Ahem) Biasanya status ni berunsur kabur, tidak ada statement yang spesifik dan bermula dengan frasa "Dear God..."

Cara kedua, aku mengenang keadaan dulu. Fikir balik macam mana keadaannya aku menjadi guru sandaran selama 6 bulan di sekolah lamaku, St Mary dulu. Ada saat manis, ada saat pahit. Ada suka, ada duka. Ahhhh... Masih tak dapat buat keputusan.

Cara ketiga, aku fb mesej senior aku yang kerja di NGO yang aku minat tu. Mintak tolong dia untuk tanya kekosongan bagi pihakku. Kalau ada kekosongan untuk part time atau kerja sementara untuk 3 bulan, aku ON jer. Kalau tiada, aku pilih tawaran Mama. Ha, pandai tak? (sempat aku memuji diriku di dalam hati)

Cara keempat, aku bercerita dengan kawan baikku, Hawa, time pergi dinner. Di jejantas RST dan di meja makan Ismail Ikan Bakarlah tempat aku memberitahu Hawa tentang perasaan dilemma yang mengganggu jiwaku ini. Kata Hawa, bertuah saya dapat tawaran macam tu. (ini lebih kurang apa yang dikatakan oleh beliau. Hehe. Sori kalau ada unsur tokok tambah hoho) Tapi entahlah, aku tak rasa aku sesuai untuk kerja ajar-mengajar ni.

Cara kelima, call Mama balik. Tanya dia balik dengan sure apa mata pelajaran yang perlu diajar. Dan benda-benda serius yang lain.

PERBUALAN KEDUA:

Mama: Oh, ajar Matematik Tahun 1 dan Tahun 2. Pastu ajar Pendidikan Moral. (macam best ja dengar subjek-subjek tu)

Aku: Ma.. bila kena confirm? Saya confirm hari Jumaat boleh?

Mama: Ok. Tapi kenapa kena fikir?

Aku: Ala.. Sebab esok baru senior saya dapat bagitau saya sama ada NGO tu ada kekosongan ke tak.. Dan lepas esok baru saya dapat bagitau awak saya dapat mengajar ke tak.

Mama: Ok. Tapi kerja lah kat sini. Guru besar tu baik. Kalau awak reject offer ni, nanti malulah saya. 

Aku: Awak suruhla orang lain. Ada banyak orang mau kerja itu.

Mama: Ala. Dia mau awak. Sebab guru besar tu kenalan mama. (PS: Dalam mencari kerja, connection tu penting, lecturer saya pernah kata)

Aku: Ok. Tapi awak tau la, mesti saya ada masalah nak biasakan diri. Saya mesti susah nak bergaul dengan guru lain.

Mama: Jangan awak risau. Guru-guru di mission school biasanya tak sombong dan sangat friendly. (Tapi kenapa kakak sulung pula sentiasa komplen pasal cikgu yang poyo kat SMK St A******, Sarikei?)

Aku: Ha.. satu lagi. Transport tu bagaimana? Papa kan guna kereta... Dan.. Dan... Saya kan memang pengecut kalau pasal nak memandu kereta.

Mama: Ala, dekat je sekolah Sacred Heart tu. Awak guna jalan terminal Sibu gi sana, ok apa.. Papa cakap awak boleh guna kereta tu time mengajar. Papa awak kata, gaji awak sebagai guru ganti pun lebih lumayan daripada gaji colleague dia yang dah kerja berapa tahun.

Aku: (-_-") (dah habis stok alasan, so takde pilihan maka keluar statement tak boleh blah) Aku tak suka mengajar... Huwaa~

Mama: Hmm.. Dah bagus dah guru besar tu offer. Nanti apa saya nak cakap kalau awak tak nak? Dia memang dah beriya-iya nak awak jadi guru ganti tu. Mana saya berani nak tegur dia lagi lepas peristiwa ni? (lebih kurang macam ni statementnya)

Aku: Eeeee.. Awak memang selalu begini. Oklah. Oklah. Nanti saya mesej senior saya, suruh dia tak payah survey kekosongan untuk saya. Kamurang yang di Sibu sila isi borang permohonan untuk saya lah.

Mama: (seriously aku boleh DENGAR senyuman Mama) Ok. Ok. Kan. Baik awak buat kerja ni dulu. Dengar kata family.

Aku: Okay. okay. Baiklah.

Aku mesej senior aku, cancel plan nak survey kekosongan di NGO yang diminati itu.

Eh. Bila fikir balik, kenapa aku dah start worry tentang benda ni sedangkan aku belum lagi duduk periksa untuk first paper FINAL?

Haiz.. (-_-")

Aku harap aku buat keputusan yang betul.

Lambung syiling.

Kepala (otak) atau bunga (hati) ?

Kepala.

(-_-")

Yea, dan keputusan itulah yang saya ambik.

Crossroads Puzzles

  I do not want to be the slave of my job - I want to be the master of my career. 

(part 1)

words of lamehood by lameleftygirl2 (2011)

When I was still a kid, I always knew what I wanted to be. I wanted to be an artist, writer, movie director, comic book artist, etc. I had so many ambitions. Sometimes, I would have temporary ambitions such as dreaming of becoming an actress (lol this dream was due to too much of Bollywood dramas), singer (this one was inspired by American Idol ugh you should've heard me sing XD you would rather vote for William Hung), and also talk show host (inspired by Oprah lol). All of these jobs have something in common, where they are connected to creativity and imagination. I wanted to become all these simply because I like to think and imagine - I like to do something which doesn't have any limitation or restriction. That is why people around me always caught me daydreaming (-_-") I was always in my deep thought... *sigh*

  But now, in my final semester of my final year, I am clueless of  how to be what I wanted to be.  My dreams stayed with me, but to make it into a reality was still a mystery to me. Among my dream jobs, the one job which is closest to reality and is more available here in Malaysia would most probably is a writer.But even this job seemed hard to find at the moment. I mean to become a journalist, you cannot simply go for an interview and tell your potential future employer that writing is your hobby, that is why you like it so much, but instead, you have to prove it by at least having some reputation in writing - articles, blog, etc. 

  So instead of looking for a serious job after the coming graduation, I changed my plan to applying of postgraduate studies. It was by chance that Hawa told me about this Master studies application and voila, now I kinda sure that I want to continue with master degree. I even called my mama and told her about it, and she was more than happy to hear about this.  I mean, though she wanted me to go back after my final exam so much, she was happy to know that finally I wanted to choose this path as she thought that pursuing a Master degree will ensure better future. If I do not continue with Master, she preferred that I work at home than working here in Penang.

 At the moment, I am thinking of continuing with Master, but since the new semester starts  four months after the final exam, I have four months to figure it out first. Oh help me please!

To be a master of my career, I have to ensure my eligibility. Thus, I have to continue with my studies, eh? (part 2)

words of lamehood by lameleftygirl2 (2011)

Crossroads Puzzles

  I do not want to be the slave of my job - I want to be the master of my career. 

(part 1)

words of lamehood by lameleftygirl2 (2011)

When I was still a kid, I always knew what I wanted to be. I wanted to be an artist, writer, movie director, comic book artist, etc. I had so many ambitions. Sometimes, I would have temporary ambitions such as dreaming of becoming an actress (lol this dream was due to too much of Bollywood dramas), singer (this one was inspired by American Idol ugh you should've heard me sing XD you would rather vote for William Hung), and also talk show host (inspired by Oprah lol). All of these jobs have something in common, where they are connected to creativity and imagination. I wanted to become all these simply because I like to think and imagine - I like to do something which doesn't have any limitation or restriction. That is why people around me always caught me daydreaming (-_-") I was always in my deep thought... *sigh*

  But now, in my final semester of my final year, I am clueless of  how to be what I wanted to be.  My dreams stayed with me, but to make it into a reality was still a mystery to me. Among my dream jobs, the one job which is closest to reality and is more available here in Malaysia would most probably is a writer.But even this job seemed hard to find at the moment. I mean to become a journalist, you cannot simply go for an interview and tell your potential future employer that writing is your hobby, that is why you like it so much, but instead, you have to prove it by at least having some reputation in writing - articles, blog, etc. 

  So instead of looking for a serious job after the coming graduation, I changed my plan to applying of postgraduate studies. It was by chance that Hawa told me about this Master studies application and voila, now I kinda sure that I want to continue with master degree. I even called my mama and told her about it, and she was more than happy to hear about this.  I mean, though she wanted me to go back after my final exam so much, she was happy to know that finally I wanted to choose this path as she thought that pursuing a Master degree will ensure better future. If I do not continue with Master, she preferred that I work at home than working here in Penang.

 At the moment, I am thinking of continuing with Master, but since the new semester starts  four months after the final exam, I have four months to figure it out first. Oh help me please!

To be a master of my career, I have to ensure my eligibility. Thus, I have to continue with my studies, eh? (part 2)

words of lamehood by lameleftygirl2 (2011)

Only You Know the Answer

Sometimes the easiest, simplest question, which did not require any reading would be the hardest question of all. It became THE million dollar question.

Today, during the sleepover gathering for the Catholic Undergraduate Society at FM house, I was struck by the question asked by Claire to Helen for the snake and ladder game. It was a very simple question, but only a few can answer it honestly and be truly confident to answer it, at least in my case.

The question is not about "Who's the love of your life", but it sounded like this:

"When was the happiest moment of your life?"

It was really simple and direct, but it's hard to determine when it was, either because you have too many happy moments to choose from or it was because you never had a perfect joyous moment in your life. There could be some flaws here and there which flawed your happiest moment.

In my case, honestly, so far during these past few years, I didn't experience one perfect happy moment. Why? How do I determine this?

It's because I still felt the insecurity or there's something missing whenever I am involved in a certain situation. In my own definition of happiness, it's just not about smiling or laughing, or enjoying a moment. Perhaps, enjoying a moment could carry the meaning of happy, but not THE happiest moment. As Claire had stated during the gathering, she described the happiest moment of your life as the flawless moment, there's NOTHING which could annoy or upset you at that very moment, which you could described as rainbow moment.

Though it was Helen who was required to answer the question, I was in my deep thought, trying to recall my own happiest moment. All I could think of was my childhood. During the simplest, most uncomplicated moments of my life. An ice cream could make my day. But now, it takes a lot more than that to make me feel blissful in and out. I guess as we grew older, we needed something abstract more than something concrete as it won't last forever.

When I tried to recall my adult life, I couldn't really determine when I am happy or not. There were times when I pretended to be happy just to erase my sadness, or not to worry my family and friends, and there were times when I am happy but only after a long set of worriness and fatigues. It was like I had to pay a very high price before I get to enjoy. [For example, it's like you had to pay for the roller coaster ride before you can take a ride on them.] In short, sometimes, I too became confused whether I was truly happy or pretended to be happy during certain moments because I was falling into this make-believe so-called happy moments.

On the other hand, it's easier to determine when I am sad than happy cause nobody would want to pretend to be sad but we always tried our best to look happy even though when we were not.

But as I think back, the way to make yourself happy is to just live life simply. Desiring too much and expecting too much out of lives can lead to lots of disappoinments if your desires couldn't be fulfilled.

And to determine the moment when you are really happy, it's the moment when you can't help smiling widely until you cry because you are so touched by the happiness and also because you regret that the moment won't last forever.

And I hope that everyone can find their answers to this million dollar question.

Only You Know the Answer

Sometimes the easiest, simplest question, which did not require any reading would be the hardest question of all. It became THE million dollar question.

Today, during the sleepover gathering for the Catholic Undergraduate Society at FM house, I was struck by the question asked by Claire to Helen for the snake and ladder game. It was a very simple question, but only a few can answer it honestly and be truly confident to answer it, at least in my case.

The question is not about "Who's the love of your life", but it sounded like this:

"When was the happiest moment of your life?"

It was really simple and direct, but it's hard to determine when it was, either because you have too many happy moments to choose from or it was because you never had a perfect joyous moment in your life. There could be some flaws here and there which flawed your happiest moment.

In my case, honestly, so far during these past few years, I didn't experience one perfect happy moment. Why? How do I determine this?

It's because I still felt the insecurity or there's something missing whenever I am involved in a certain situation. In my own definition of happiness, it's just not about smiling or laughing, or enjoying a moment. Perhaps, enjoying a moment could carry the meaning of happy, but not THE happiest moment. As Claire had stated during the gathering, she described the happiest moment of your life as the flawless moment, there's NOTHING which could annoy or upset you at that very moment, which you could described as rainbow moment.

Though it was Helen who was required to answer the question, I was in my deep thought, trying to recall my own happiest moment. All I could think of was my childhood. During the simplest, most uncomplicated moments of my life. An ice cream could make my day. But now, it takes a lot more than that to make me feel blissful in and out. I guess as we grew older, we needed something abstract more than something concrete as it won't last forever.

When I tried to recall my adult life, I couldn't really determine when I am happy or not. There were times when I pretended to be happy just to erase my sadness, or not to worry my family and friends, and there were times when I am happy but only after a long set of worriness and fatigues. It was like I had to pay a very high price before I get to enjoy. [For example, it's like you had to pay for the roller coaster ride before you can take a ride on them.] In short, sometimes, I too became confused whether I was truly happy or pretended to be happy during certain moments because I was falling into this make-believe so-called happy moments.

On the other hand, it's easier to determine when I am sad than happy cause nobody would want to pretend to be sad but we always tried our best to look happy even though when we were not.

But as I think back, the way to make yourself happy is to just live life simply. Desiring too much and expecting too much out of lives can lead to lots of disappoinments if your desires couldn't be fulfilled.

And to determine the moment when you are really happy, it's the moment when you can't help smiling widely until you cry because you are so touched by the happiness and also because you regret that the moment won't last forever.

And I hope that everyone can find their answers to this million dollar question.

Are You Ready to Rock the New Semester?

Answer: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am in the process of registering the new courses now but what the crap I could not register one of the papers online *tsk tsk* which is my minor paper and as usual I am going back to USM late which is on the first day (12th July 2010) when the classes will start *wink2*. I hope I won't be fined for later registration *praying gesture*. Honestly, I am not ready for the new semester as usual but crapz, I have lots of things to plan for the new semester. Ok first, I want to watch more movies at the cinema for the next semester cause you know, watching movies at Penang are wayyyyyyyy cheaper than back at home. And the popcorns are crunchier yummay! And then I want to read more books (dream on hmmm) at the library and travel more (around Penang cause budget is a big NO) and I want to buy mp4 or mp5 yeah. So I guess a lot of budget involved here *tsk tsk*.

But of course I cannot spend much on entertainment next semester cause I have to save lot on the budget for the new semester as the convocation is approaching -my sister is graduating and I have seniors graduating and I'm gonna miss them very very much. With the seniors graduating it means about 40% of my friends will leave USM *tsk tsk* so I have to mingle with the new juniors but ugh i don't wana sound desperate.. It's ok have less but intimate friends. (consoling self)

I hope I am going to enjoy each and every moment for the new semester and I want it to pass by slowly cause I am in no rush to grow old rapidly. And I need time to pass by really slow because I need more time for self-discovery as I think I haven't really confirm what am I gonna do with my life in the future. Hmm.. It's ironic I don't want to have a narrowed future where my future career is definite but now I think having undecided future isn't that great either. *sigh*

Are You Ready to Rock the New Semester?

Answer: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am in the process of registering the new courses now but what the crap I could not register one of the papers online *tsk tsk* which is my minor paper and as usual I am going back to USM late which is on the first day (12th July 2010) when the classes will start *wink2*. I hope I won't be fined for later registration *praying gesture*. Honestly, I am not ready for the new semester as usual but crapz, I have lots of things to plan for the new semester. Ok first, I want to watch more movies at the cinema for the next semester cause you know, watching movies at Penang are wayyyyyyyy cheaper than back at home. And the popcorns are crunchier yummay! And then I want to read more books (dream on hmmm) at the library and travel more (around Penang cause budget is a big NO) and I want to buy mp4 or mp5 yeah. So I guess a lot of budget involved here *tsk tsk*.

But of course I cannot spend much on entertainment next semester cause I have to save lot on the budget for the new semester as the convocation is approaching -my sister is graduating and I have seniors graduating and I'm gonna miss them very very much. With the seniors graduating it means about 40% of my friends will leave USM *tsk tsk* so I have to mingle with the new juniors but ugh i don't wana sound desperate.. It's ok have less but intimate friends. (consoling self)

I hope I am going to enjoy each and every moment for the new semester and I want it to pass by slowly cause I am in no rush to grow old rapidly. And I need time to pass by really slow because I need more time for self-discovery as I think I haven't really confirm what am I gonna do with my life in the future. Hmm.. It's ironic I don't want to have a narrowed future where my future career is definite but now I think having undecided future isn't that great either. *sigh*

Questions that I Need Not Answer now that Sibu is appearing on TV frequently

[Interframe: OMG, I am so addicted to Hotel City in Facebook. Anyone playing hotel city here?]


POPULAR QUESTIONS REGARDING MY HOMETOWN WHEN I AM OUT OF TOWN:

1) Do you have KFC there in Sibu?

Yes, we do have KFC in Sibu. We have McD, Pizza Hut, and Sugarbun too. But not Marrybrown. *smiling politely*

2) How do you go to Sibu? Do you have airport in Sibu or you go to Sibu by bus from Kuching?

Urm, I go to Sibu by plane. And before that I have transit at KL. By the way, (extra selamba) Sibu does have an airport, and we only go to Sibu by bus once when my father mistakenly booked a flight to Kuching instead of to Sibu.

3) Do you have shopping complex there in Sibu?

Yep. We only have shopping complexES for hanging out activity and cafes and yes, fastfood chains of course, since there's no beach or any other nature attraction in Sibu. So we have to have more shopping complex to cure our boredom. We do have Giant and Parkson but no Tesco. Oh I wish we have Tesco because the prices of groceries in Farley and Sing Kwong are damn expensive!

4) Is your house in Sibu is a brick house or wooden house? (Another way of asking either Sibu is a town or a kampung)

Oh, my house here is a terrace house, around 15 minute from town. It's a housing area, not a kampung. My kampung is at Dalat, which is also my parents' kampung, and it's been a really long time since my family and I last visited there since my grandmama is barely there. My kampung Dalat is now even developing, and it doesn't feel like kampung anymore and I don't like that, you know. Kampung should remain a kampung, and if you want to have a city or town life, just move to a city or a town, instead of turning a kampung into one. And I felt like adding "Ironically our kampung in Sibu are mostly located in town area, so the kampung are not really kampung either."


And there were a few more questions which were asked by our acquiantences and some strangers who learned that me and my sister are from Borneo which I could not remember. But there were a few too who heard the name Sibu asked us if we were Foochow and if we were rich? Lol. I mean, yeah, we're not Foochow, and we're not rich, though people may have heard that Sibu are full of filthy rich people especially the Foochow communities. Well, it's in their blood actually, to be good at business and earning money.

Though sometimes I felt it's funny for people to ask me questions regarding Sibu that way, but I could not blame them. I blame the media instead. I mean, how did the media portrayed Sarawak and Sabah? They showed the Orang Utan, the mountain, the rural area communities, and yeah, that's really good as they highlight the nature beauty of the state, but they forgot to show the developed area of Borneo. And by the way, if you want to make Sarawak and Sabah a beauty attraction, you forgot to show the hotels there! You just show the rural houses, the animals, but not the hotels? Who do you expect to attract? Only the backpackers and Amazing Race producer? Or the zoo manager?

That was why it was no surprise when an aunty who worked at Mydin who initially mistook my sister and I as Japanese, but soon when she heard we were from Sarawak, she asked us both a very amusing question.

Aunty kerja kat Mydin (bless that aunty, she was one very friendly worker):
Oooo Sarawak. Kamu masih pakai daun ka? (Translation: Do you still wear leaves as clothes?)

Me and sister could not help smiling, and almost laugh out loud.

Sister: Tidak. Sekarang tidak. Itu hanya semasa perayaan atau upacara sahaja. *insert laugh*(Translation: Nope. That was only during festival or ritual. haha)

Aunty kerja kat Mydin: Oh.. Tapi kat tv show macam tu.. (Translation: But the tv shows that way)

Me and sister: *just smiling*


Damn the media for causing the majority Malaysians to become ignorant for showing them only selected parts of Sarawak during tourist promotion. Yeah, I know we should be proud of our natural attraction in Borneo but what the heck, is showing a little development in Borneo will make Borneo less exotic? How can a family dare to travel here if they think all they can see are jungles and no place and facilities for the children to shop or play? I mean, it doesn't hurt to show some facilities available in Sarawak besides that natural attraction right?

But now showing to all Malaysians the development in Sarawak (especially Sibu) is not a problem anymore due to the election which is going on at Sibu now, and tomorrow will be the voting day. The development at Sibu will be HIGHLIGHTED at the media to show that the ruling party was doing their job in developing. Hah! Only now it does matter to show the development here in Sibu, no? Only when it involves politic and only when it gives some credits to some party. And Sibu will be the next town to become a household name because of this by-election after Permatang Pauh (which happens to be the hometown of my roommate). My roommate told me before the by-election, Permatang Pauh was unpopular. But during and after the election, voila, it was very popular. And the same case here. So I guess, after this, I do not need to face any questions that I mentioned above regarding my hometown when I am out of town since I saw the activities at Sibu were shown on TV3 and any other channels. Though I hate elections, due to the noise and environment pollution they caused, this by-election has its positive side too, which is to show my hometown as how it is, and also will save me a lot of hassles in answering some amusing questions.

By the way, I am not voting since I am not into politics and I don't even know who are the nominees. So instead of voting blindly, it is better for me to not vote at all. And I only vote in campus election because the voting camp was right beside my hostel block.

AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST, HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY TO ALL THE TEACHERS OUT THERE!

Questions that I Need Not Answer now that Sibu is appearing on TV frequently

[Interframe: OMG, I am so addicted to Hotel City in Facebook. Anyone playing hotel city here?]


POPULAR QUESTIONS REGARDING MY HOMETOWN WHEN I AM OUT OF TOWN:

1) Do you have KFC there in Sibu?

Yes, we do have KFC in Sibu. We have McD, Pizza Hut, and Sugarbun too. But not Marrybrown. *smiling politely*

2) How do you go to Sibu? Do you have airport in Sibu or you go to Sibu by bus from Kuching?

Urm, I go to Sibu by plane. And before that I have transit at KL. By the way, (extra selamba) Sibu does have an airport, and we only go to Sibu by bus once when my father mistakenly booked a flight to Kuching instead of to Sibu.

3) Do you have shopping complex there in Sibu?

Yep. We only have shopping complexES for hanging out activity and cafes and yes, fastfood chains of course, since there's no beach or any other nature attraction in Sibu. So we have to have more shopping complex to cure our boredom. We do have Giant and Parkson but no Tesco. Oh I wish we have Tesco because the prices of groceries in Farley and Sing Kwong are damn expensive!

4) Is your house in Sibu is a brick house or wooden house? (Another way of asking either Sibu is a town or a kampung)

Oh, my house here is a terrace house, around 15 minute from town. It's a housing area, not a kampung. My kampung is at Dalat, which is also my parents' kampung, and it's been a really long time since my family and I last visited there since my grandmama is barely there. My kampung Dalat is now even developing, and it doesn't feel like kampung anymore and I don't like that, you know. Kampung should remain a kampung, and if you want to have a city or town life, just move to a city or a town, instead of turning a kampung into one. And I felt like adding "Ironically our kampung in Sibu are mostly located in town area, so the kampung are not really kampung either."


And there were a few more questions which were asked by our acquiantences and some strangers who learned that me and my sister are from Borneo which I could not remember. But there were a few too who heard the name Sibu asked us if we were Foochow and if we were rich? Lol. I mean, yeah, we're not Foochow, and we're not rich, though people may have heard that Sibu are full of filthy rich people especially the Foochow communities. Well, it's in their blood actually, to be good at business and earning money.

Though sometimes I felt it's funny for people to ask me questions regarding Sibu that way, but I could not blame them. I blame the media instead. I mean, how did the media portrayed Sarawak and Sabah? They showed the Orang Utan, the mountain, the rural area communities, and yeah, that's really good as they highlight the nature beauty of the state, but they forgot to show the developed area of Borneo. And by the way, if you want to make Sarawak and Sabah a beauty attraction, you forgot to show the hotels there! You just show the rural houses, the animals, but not the hotels? Who do you expect to attract? Only the backpackers and Amazing Race producer? Or the zoo manager?

That was why it was no surprise when an aunty who worked at Mydin who initially mistook my sister and I as Japanese, but soon when she heard we were from Sarawak, she asked us both a very amusing question.

Aunty kerja kat Mydin (bless that aunty, she was one very friendly worker):
Oooo Sarawak. Kamu masih pakai daun ka? (Translation: Do you still wear leaves as clothes?)

Me and sister could not help smiling, and almost laugh out loud.

Sister: Tidak. Sekarang tidak. Itu hanya semasa perayaan atau upacara sahaja. *insert laugh*(Translation: Nope. That was only during festival or ritual. haha)

Aunty kerja kat Mydin: Oh.. Tapi kat tv show macam tu.. (Translation: But the tv shows that way)

Me and sister: *just smiling*


Damn the media for causing the majority Malaysians to become ignorant for showing them only selected parts of Sarawak during tourist promotion. Yeah, I know we should be proud of our natural attraction in Borneo but what the heck, is showing a little development in Borneo will make Borneo less exotic? How can a family dare to travel here if they think all they can see are jungles and no place and facilities for the children to shop or play? I mean, it doesn't hurt to show some facilities available in Sarawak besides that natural attraction right?

But now showing to all Malaysians the development in Sarawak (especially Sibu) is not a problem anymore due to the election which is going on at Sibu now, and tomorrow will be the voting day. The development at Sibu will be HIGHLIGHTED at the media to show that the ruling party was doing their job in developing. Hah! Only now it does matter to show the development here in Sibu, no? Only when it involves politic and only when it gives some credits to some party. And Sibu will be the next town to become a household name because of this by-election after Permatang Pauh (which happens to be the hometown of my roommate). My roommate told me before the by-election, Permatang Pauh was unpopular. But during and after the election, voila, it was very popular. And the same case here. So I guess, after this, I do not need to face any questions that I mentioned above regarding my hometown when I am out of town since I saw the activities at Sibu were shown on TV3 and any other channels. Though I hate elections, due to the noise and environment pollution they caused, this by-election has its positive side too, which is to show my hometown as how it is, and also will save me a lot of hassles in answering some amusing questions.

By the way, I am not voting since I am not into politics and I don't even know who are the nominees. So instead of voting blindly, it is better for me to not vote at all. And I only vote in campus election because the voting camp was right beside my hostel block.

AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST, HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY TO ALL THE TEACHERS OUT THERE!

Sometimes, I wish I have my own reality show...

I hope there's a video camera capturing every moment of my life though my life is not very interesting..

It's because though my life isn't interesting and I don't always get invited to parties or big events, I always witness something interesting.. Something which was meaningful that could make me tear up on the spot if I lose my self control.

Question 1:

Have you ever seen a Muslim friend helping a Christian girl sticking the posters which promote the Christian club around campus late at night?

I have seen that. And that Muslim girl is my good friend, Pizal.. She insisted on helping me to stick the Catholic Undergraduate Society posters though I asked her not to.

Question 2:
Have you ever heard a Muslim friend advising her Christian friend to pray before and after eating a meal or even a simple bread or kuih?

I have heard that. And that Muslim friend is my good friend Hawa, and she always remind me to pray before and after eating according to my own religion. And I always remembered to do that ever since. Thanks girl..

Have you ever seen three strangers from different races, Malay, Indian and Chinese ended up becoming friends during a Ko-K activities?

Well, I have never seen it, but I did experienced it, because the Malay girl was Salwa, Indian girl was Hema, and I was the Chinese girl. We met while I was taking the swimming Ko-K last year. We ended up becoming friends, both of them helped to teach me how to swim as I was the slow learner. I always joked that we made "Iklan Petronas" while socializing together.


If you think One Malaysia is only a failed mission, you could be wrong because it was already possible even when One Malaysia haven't start. Actually, we did realized about the importance of unity among races long before, it was just that sometimes we didn't realize it because we just thought that we were friends so naturally - we forgot that we were actually befriending someone from different background, different races, and different beliefs, because we focused on the similarities rather than the differences. And that was the good thing about it. We look as our friends not based on their physical differences but something beyond that, which is our thinking and our stand.

So, don't try hard to pick someone who is different from you and be friends with them just to fulfill the so-called One Malaysia. Let your friendship work out naturally. Just focus on someone who has the same thinking as you, and you will be surprised that the person who has the same thinking as you usually comes from a very different background, different belief, and different practices.

And that is the foundation of a friendship that will last rather than just a semester's friendship.

KESIMPULAN: DALAM PERSAHABATAN, ANDA TAK PERLU MENGUAR-UARKAN KONSEP SATU MALAYSIA DAN MEMBUATKAN PERSAHABATAN ANDA NAMPAK PALSU.
BIARKAN PERSAHABATAN ANDA BERMULA DENGAN NATURAL, TANPA PERLU SENGAJA BERGAUL DENGAN ORANG YANG BERBEZA HANYA UNTUK 'MEREALISASIKAN' KONSEP INI KERANA AKHIRNYA ANDA AKAN SEDAR DENGAN SENDIRINYA YANG ORANG YANG BERBEZA DENGAN ANDA SEBENARNYA ADALAH LEBIH MENYERUPAI ANDA DARIPADA ORANG YANG SAMA DENGAN ANDA.

PEACE~!!

Sometimes, I wish I have my own reality show...

I hope there's a video camera capturing every moment of my life though my life is not very interesting..

It's because though my life isn't interesting and I don't always get invited to parties or big events, I always witness something interesting.. Something which was meaningful that could make me tear up on the spot if I lose my self control.

Question 1:

Have you ever seen a Muslim friend helping a Christian girl sticking the posters which promote the Christian club around campus late at night?

I have seen that. And that Muslim girl is my good friend, Pizal.. She insisted on helping me to stick the Catholic Undergraduate Society posters though I asked her not to.

Question 2:
Have you ever heard a Muslim friend advising her Christian friend to pray before and after eating a meal or even a simple bread or kuih?

I have heard that. And that Muslim friend is my good friend Hawa, and she always remind me to pray before and after eating according to my own religion. And I always remembered to do that ever since. Thanks girl..

Have you ever seen three strangers from different races, Malay, Indian and Chinese ended up becoming friends during a Ko-K activities?

Well, I have never seen it, but I did experienced it, because the Malay girl was Salwa, Indian girl was Hema, and I was the Chinese girl. We met while I was taking the swimming Ko-K last year. We ended up becoming friends, both of them helped to teach me how to swim as I was the slow learner. I always joked that we made "Iklan Petronas" while socializing together.


If you think One Malaysia is only a failed mission, you could be wrong because it was already possible even when One Malaysia haven't start. Actually, we did realized about the importance of unity among races long before, it was just that sometimes we didn't realize it because we just thought that we were friends so naturally - we forgot that we were actually befriending someone from different background, different races, and different beliefs, because we focused on the similarities rather than the differences. And that was the good thing about it. We look as our friends not based on their physical differences but something beyond that, which is our thinking and our stand.

So, don't try hard to pick someone who is different from you and be friends with them just to fulfill the so-called One Malaysia. Let your friendship work out naturally. Just focus on someone who has the same thinking as you, and you will be surprised that the person who has the same thinking as you usually comes from a very different background, different belief, and different practices.

And that is the foundation of a friendship that will last rather than just a semester's friendship.

KESIMPULAN: DALAM PERSAHABATAN, ANDA TAK PERLU MENGUAR-UARKAN KONSEP SATU MALAYSIA DAN MEMBUATKAN PERSAHABATAN ANDA NAMPAK PALSU.
BIARKAN PERSAHABATAN ANDA BERMULA DENGAN NATURAL, TANPA PERLU SENGAJA BERGAUL DENGAN ORANG YANG BERBEZA HANYA UNTUK 'MEREALISASIKAN' KONSEP INI KERANA AKHIRNYA ANDA AKAN SEDAR DENGAN SENDIRINYA YANG ORANG YANG BERBEZA DENGAN ANDA SEBENARNYA ADALAH LEBIH MENYERUPAI ANDA DARIPADA ORANG YANG SAMA DENGAN ANDA.

PEACE~!!

I guess, Macam-macam Aznil is still the most original show in Malaysia.

Interframe: It's just three days away from leaving Sibu and I felt weird how I wasn't that homesick of going back to my hometown but I wasn't eager to go back to the university to study either. I can already imagine the hectic life there with the activities lining up for my club and for my academic too. I felt nauseous even when I only think of it.

Now I am a little unwell due to coughing but I guess I had to recover rapidly - or else I would not be allowed to board the plane. The worst torture is that I had to eat only porridge though I felt like eating all the good stuff as this would be my last week at Sibu. What a waste. This semester, it would be my first time taking full unit (20 unit) and I hope I can cope up with all the hectic schedule.

I have a new favourite show.

And that show is Spontan.

This is a show aired on Astro Warna (which we didn't subscribe so I watched the downloaded version which I got from my sister who knew the show from our friends Step and Melody.)

This show made me laugh hysterically.

This show is hosted by Sharifah Shahira and there are at least four players in this show for every episode.

Each of the player were given the task to perform a sketch spontaneously.

I watched the show and I thought

"Wow~ Malaysia finally have its own original comedy show (besides Macam-macam Aznil) instead of using the format of the shows from other countries (e.g: Raja Lawak is the Malaysian version of Last Comic standing, etc)".

But as I watched through the Spontan series, suddenly it hit me.

This kind of show is somewhat familiar.

It does ring a bell of


jengjengjeng

"Whose Line is it anyway."


Whose Line is it anyway is originally a british show which had the US version hosted by Drew Carey. In this show, there are four players which had to do the sketch spontaneously according to the host's given situation.

So that's it. Spontan wasn't really that original either, except that it has a few innovation with the inclusion of the beatboxer Sean and a few more original games. But the format is still the same with Whose Line is it anyway.


Spontan

Vs

Whose Line Is It Anyway


But whatever it is, I still like to watch Spontan though I think it's hard to catch Din Beramboi's jokes sometimes.

So, as a conclusion, Macam-macam Aznil is still the most original comedy show in Malaysia.

I guess, Macam-macam Aznil is still the most original show in Malaysia.

Interframe: It's just three days away from leaving Sibu and I felt weird how I wasn't that homesick of going back to my hometown but I wasn't eager to go back to the university to study either. I can already imagine the hectic life there with the activities lining up for my club and for my academic too. I felt nauseous even when I only think of it.

Now I am a little unwell due to coughing but I guess I had to recover rapidly - or else I would not be allowed to board the plane. The worst torture is that I had to eat only porridge though I felt like eating all the good stuff as this would be my last week at Sibu. What a waste. This semester, it would be my first time taking full unit (20 unit) and I hope I can cope up with all the hectic schedule.

I have a new favourite show.

And that show is Spontan.

This is a show aired on Astro Warna (which we didn't subscribe so I watched the downloaded version which I got from my sister who knew the show from our friends Step and Melody.)

This show made me laugh hysterically.

This show is hosted by Sharifah Shahira and there are at least four players in this show for every episode.

Each of the player were given the task to perform a sketch spontaneously.

I watched the show and I thought

"Wow~ Malaysia finally have its own original comedy show (besides Macam-macam Aznil) instead of using the format of the shows from other countries (e.g: Raja Lawak is the Malaysian version of Last Comic standing, etc)".

But as I watched through the Spontan series, suddenly it hit me.

This kind of show is somewhat familiar.

It does ring a bell of


jengjengjeng

"Whose Line is it anyway."


Whose Line is it anyway is originally a british show which had the US version hosted by Drew Carey. In this show, there are four players which had to do the sketch spontaneously according to the host's given situation.

So that's it. Spontan wasn't really that original either, except that it has a few innovation with the inclusion of the beatboxer Sean and a few more original games. But the format is still the same with Whose Line is it anyway.


Spontan

Vs

Whose Line Is It Anyway


But whatever it is, I still like to watch Spontan though I think it's hard to catch Din Beramboi's jokes sometimes.

So, as a conclusion, Macam-macam Aznil is still the most original comedy show in Malaysia.

Ini Bukan Post Ilmiah..

Interframe: Faktor pertama aku menulis post ini dalam bahasa Melayu disebabkan aku belajar Sains dalam BM suatu ketika dahulu, maka aku tidak tahu macam mana nak panggil 'pemboleh ubah' dalam bahasa Inggeris. Faktor kedua aku menulis dalam Bm adalah apabila mode nak mengumpat is on, aku malas nak jaga grammar aku yang hisaps, so aku tulislah dalam BM. Dan apabila bercakap tentang pemboleh ubah dimanipulasi dan dimalarkan, aku teringat pula dengan si Matth (bukan nama sebenar ) sebab term pemboleh ubah ini tercipta dalam perbualan kami berdua apabila baliknya kami dari ICG.

Ketika membuat eksperimen dalam mata pelajaran Sains dari sekolah rendah hinggalah sekolah menengah, adalah diwajibkan untuk kita mengambil kira perkara-perkara berikut terutamanya ketika membuat eksperimen perbandingan. Dua faktor utama yang dikenal pasti saling bergantungan; iaitu pemboleh ubah dimanipulasi dan pemboleh ubah dimalarkan. Biasanya, pemboleh ubah dimanipulasi hanyalah merujuk kepada satu faktor (misalnya faktor keadaan), manakala faktor-faktor yang lain adalah wajib dimalarkan. Erm, anda sudah pening? Biar saya terangkan dengan lebih lanjut menggunakan parable of the kacang hijau.

Parable of the Kacang Hijau.
Misalnya untuk menguji kepentingan air dalam percambahan kacang hijau, biasanya pemboleh ubah yang dimalarkan ialah jenis kacang hijau tersebut, iaitu kacang-kacang hijau tersebut haruslah dibeli dari satu pek yang sama. Dan tempat yang yang disediakan untuk percambahan kacang hijau adalah di atas kapas jenama yang sama. (Sesiapa yang memandai guna salah satu jenama Babysoft dan satu guna jenama X, nayalah orang itu.) Kelembapan atmosfera dan kehadiran cahaya matahari haruslah sama. Rasa-rasanya semua pemboleh ubah yang dimalarkan sudah lengkap. Dan untuk pemboleh ubah yang dimanipulasi dalam eksperimen ini adalah satu sahaja, iaitu kehadiran air. Salah satu kapasnya kering, salah satu kapasnya lembap dan basah dengan air.

Jika terdapat pemboleh ubah dimalarkan yang TERRRRubah menjadi dimanipulasi, maka eksperimen tidak berjaya atau dengan kata lain, keputusan eksperimen adalah tidak tepat.

Aku, walaupun sebagai seorang pelajar Sastera, memang bersetuju dengan kaedah saintifik membuat perbandingan. Kaedah ini lebih adil dan saksama, kerana pemboleh ubah yang lain semua dimalarkan dan hanya satu pemboleh ubah yang dimanipulasi.

Jadi, kenapa tiba-tiba aku nak bercakap pasal pemboleh ubah-pemboleh ubah yang telah disebut di atas walaupun exam aku yang akan datang hanya berkisar tentang linguistik, sastera, dan komunikasi manusia dan tak ada kena mengena langsung dengan kaedah saintifik yang telah dinyatakan? Ya, apabila musim exam menjelang, anda tidak dapat lari daripada persoalan: Apakah keputusan yang anda bakal peroleh? Dan daripada persoalan ini, lahirlah satu persoalan lain iaitu: Mengapa keputusan *insert nama* lebih baik daripada keputusan awak? (Biasanya persoalan kedua ni datang dari mulut mak ayah, lecturer, ataupun sesiapa sahaja yang suka membuat perbandingan tanpa menggunakan eksperimen secara saintifik).. So, itulah yang aku nak ketengahkan.

Perbandingan...
(Ya, setelah aku merapu berjela-jela, inilah tema kita pada hari ini!)

Itulah satu perkara sensitif yang sering dibuat kepada kita sebagai pelajar walaupun pada hakikatnya, kita tidak suka dibandingkan - melainkan kita adalah yang lebih baik dalam perbandingan tersebut.

Jadi di sini, aku nak mengetengahkan bahawa cara sesetengah orang membuat perbandingan ke atas kita, adalah langsung tidak adil. Mereka biasanya membuat perbandingan sewenang-wenangnya melalui pemerhatian kasar mereka tanpa mengambil kira prosedur yang sepatutnya - prosedur eksperimen secara saintifik.

Contoh-contoh perbandingan yang sering dibuat ke atas aku:

Contoh 1: "Eh, kenapa awak ni tak sepandai kakak awak, si *insert nama* tu?"

*Insert muka kasihan aku*

Masa tu aku macam nak jawab: "Dia dah 2 years ahead of me makan garam, of course her kepandaian is two years ahead of me lah, cis~!"


Tapi kan, on second thought, lebih tua tak semestinya lebih pandai. Tapi sepatutnya lebih pandailah. Sebab kan orang yang lebih tua ada masa lebih dah mengalami macam-macam sebelum junior mereka kan?



Contoh 2:"Eh, kenapa anak *insert nama* tu boleh dapat keputusan macam tu, awak pula dapat macam ni?" - biasanya ditanya oleh ibu bapa kita sendiri (-_-) ketika zaman sekolah rendah dan sekolah menengah dahulu.

*insert muka aku yang buat mulut muncung*

Jawapan on my mind: Mungkin sebab aku bukan anak mereka. Kalau aku anak mereka kan aku boleh dapat keputusan macam tu juga. Bwahahhaa..


Contoh 3: (Setting: Ketika majlis/kenduri/atau apa-apa aktiviti yang boleh buat orang berkumpul ramai-ramai)

Parent A: "Eh, berapa anak awak dapat untuk STPM hari tu?"
Parent B (for Baby): "Biasa je. Dapat 2A je (bukan result sebenar) [punyalah aku belajar separuh mati nak dapat keputusan macam tu, selamba je dia orang jawab ye]. Anak awak?"
Parent A: "Tak sebaik result anak awaklah. Dapat *insert result* je."
Parent B (for Baby): "Oh, takpe. Anak awak tu Science stream, anak saya ni Art stream, Science tu memang susahlah.."

*insert muka gigit bibir aku*

Rasa nak menyampuk on my mind: Science memang susah, tapi lebih senang diaorang nak masuk universiti kalau nak BANDING dengan kami orang.

"2A dalam STPM belum lagi dapat menjamin anda untuk mendapat kursus pilihan anda di universiti bagi pelajar SASTERA"- quote Cikgu Ai Fen. (I miss u Cikgu. huhu~)

Aku bukanlah nak complain sebab tak banyak orang puji aku pandai. Aku cuma nak ketengahkan isu perbandingan ini kadang-kadang memberi kesan negatif, dan tidak semestinya menaikkan perasaan competitive dalam diri kita, terutamanya apabila kita sudah melakukan yang terbaik. Dah bersusah payah kita berusaha, bukan penghargaan atau pujian yang diberi, tapi perbandingan. Dan adalah lebih menyakitkan apabila perbandingan yang dibuat adalah tidak adil, tidak berasas, dan hanya dibuat sekadar nak menaikkan nafsu amarah atau mengurangkan keyakinan kita.

Tapi sekarang, aku takkan kecil hati sangat sebab perbandingan yang orang buat terhadap aku tu tidak mempunyai pemboleh ubah yang dimalarkan. So, secara automatiknya, perbandingan tersebut tidak boleh diambil kira. Bwhahahaha..(Adakah patut, bandingkan aku dengan seseorang dari kursus lain, tahun berbeza, dan tenaga pengajarnya berbeza dengan aku? Sekurang-kurangnya semasa sekolah rendah, aku hanya dibandingkan dengan classmateku - dan itu masih belum dikira sebagai adil sebab mungkin ada yang pergi tuition.) Semuanya adalah pemboleh ubah dimanipulasi, maka eksperimen tidak berjaya! Keputusan eksperimen adalah tidak tepat, atau dengan kata lain, perbandingan yang anda buat itu adalah tidak tepat sama sekali.

Kalau nak bandingkan aku dengan seseorang, kriteria-kriteria berikut harus diambil kira:
1) Dia tinggal satu rumah dengan aku.
2) Dia sama umur dengan aku.
3) Dia belajar di sekolah yang sama dengan aku.
4) Dia diajar oleh guru yang sama dengan aku.
5) Dia belajar kursus yang sama dengan aku.
6) Dia ada aktiviti kelab yang tahap kesibukannya sama dengan aku. Tanggungjawabnya pun sama dengan aku.
7) Dia punya tahap bajet (wang saku) sama banyak dengan aku.
8) Dia berjalan ke bilik kuliah sama seperti aku.
9) Dia mencuci pakaiannya sendiri - sama seperti aku.
10) Dia mempunyai kawan-kawan yang sama dengan aku.

Itulah semua pemboleh ubah dimalarkan yang sepatutnya untuk membuat perbandingan. Pendek kata, aku hanya boleh dibandingkan dengan klonku sendiri.

Pemboleh ubah dimanipulasi:
1)Nama, personaliti dan fesyen rambut kami berbeza.


So, anda semua rasa nak buat perbandingan? Kalau nak buat perbandingan tepat, silalah ambil kira pemboleh ubah-pemboleh ubahnya terlebih dahulu. Kalau tidak, "don't bother" lah ~(ikut nasihat Shakira the Colombian singer). Peace~

Sekian, terima kasih.